seriously??

Well it has been such a long time since I have blogged… lost track but I am back. I think life is full of unexpected turns and right now I am on the ride but not sure where it is going… 

I am frustrated. First I really don’t understand people. I mean you think one thing but then it ends up being something else. As someone who tries to follow Jesus I find it hard to do at times. It is hard to trust Him with so many things in my life when I know that things never turn out the way they do in my head… I have come to realize that I am an analyzer. I never would have thought that before but for some reason I find myself analyzing conversations, people, what they really mean etc. I don’t remember always being like that so I am wondering if this is a new character trait or one I am just becoming self aware of. Either way, I am realizing this and I don’t know how to analyze certain things I mean I try to be honest and say what I mean. People almost always know where I stand on things it’s others that I don’t have a clue on. I use to think I was really perceptive.. but now I am just not sure. Maybe I have been wrong all along. Maybe I don’t really know how to read people anymore …